Wednesday, February 18, 2009

What I've learned in in half a decade.

Ever feel like you are at a crossroad in life and you don't know which direction to go? Well that would be me right now. I have so much ambition, motivation, determination and dedication yet I still feel as if I'm at a crossroad. If you would've asked me five years ago where do I see myself in the next five years???? I definitely wouldn't be where I am today.

Yet I know that where I'm at isn't all so bad. The past five years have brought me a lot of heartache and pain and it also brought me joy and happiness and I can truly say that I've found myself. I've grown mentally, physically and spiritually. I've learned that family doesn't necessarily consist of those who I'm connected to through a blood line or by marriage. I've learned that in order to make someone else happy that I must first be happy with myself.

I've discovered that some people come in your life for a particular reason and others are only here for a season. And yes.....patience truly is a virtue!!!!!! I've come to the realization that your life is what you make it......it's full of many advantages, disadvantages, trials and tribulations.....but it's still your life and you have control over the decisions you make.

In the past five years I've become wise beyond my years and along with that come’s maturity. I have taught myself to focus on me and to put me first in my own world. I've learned how to open up my heart in a way I never knew possible. This has allowed me to love way beyond measure. I now know how to accept my personal faults and find a way to turn all those negatives into a positive. I've been able to take a piece away from every relationship that I have with people that are in my life and use it as a learning tool. I now know how to accept myself for who I am and what I've become.

I have learned to have an open mind, think outside of the box and look at every situation from both sides of the fence. In the past five years I have become a better person period. I realize that we are born to die...and although death is a hard thing to deal with...we must all go through it at one point in our life. I know that I can't fix every problem and that there isn't always a solution to every problem. I know that it's okay to mess up, deal with it and move on.

What have I learned in the past five years of my life that will last with me forever?

I have learned that it's okay to make mistakes, to ask for forgiveness, always be myself at all times and to truly appreciate the gift of life that God has given me. With this life I can carry on a legacy that will truly never be forgotten.